I Love Being A Man Pt. 3: Chances?!?

I watched this in disappointment: Men talking about how guys need 2 or 3 times to really prove themselves. Girls (albeit ugly ones in my opinion) talking about how they would give a cute dude another shot or so. Word?

I come from a long line of pastors and players. Yes they are the same in ways I might consider posting about one day... the point is that I have been raised to put the woman's feelings ahead of yours. Sex is a job: your pleasure is my priority. It's a job I enjoy thoroughly, a job I can come back to over and over, a job I can work over and over... but a job regardless.

Then I stopped and thought about it. Within my tiny circle of friends, if a girl does not come back for more then you are booted from the circle. Harsh, but you have to watch the company you keep.

But in the outside world... do girls come back to see if you can do better? Wow.

My mood shifted from disappointment in these men who are below my standards for myself, to relief that the world of women does not expect that much for me. This reality only gives me the opportunity to outshine the status quo, introduce a woman to my reality so that we may shake our heads at this video together.

But the safety net that men have is comforting. I know stories of my homeboys that have slept with girls that were less than spectacular (never had the misfortune, love yall), and they don't answer their phone calls or texts anymore. But men, we get chances. That is one double standard I can't appreciate really, but I can rock with it regardless.

Please note: For any girl that has had sex with one of my homies and have not heard from them since, sorry you had to find out on my blog.

When Keeping It Real Goes Wrong (08/27/09)

Niggas... SMH...

Life: Priceless. Worthless.

“Am I wrong for wishing somebody would get killed? I mean, it just doesn’t seem like Hip-Hop gets it until somebody gets killed.”

-illseed, August 10, 2009, posted in rumors

I read this in the rumors section of AllHipHop. I respect illseed because he has a lot of insight and wisdom in matters of Hip-Hop and life. He's also funny. At the time he said this, the beef between Joe Budden and Raekwon had escalated to fisticuffs when Budden was decked by Rae's entourage. While some, who do not understand the state of Hip-Hop or illseed's dry humor, were enraged by this statement, I understood the point he was trying to make. That it is only in death, does Hip-Hop appreciate life and seek to preserve what has already been lost.

But this is a bigger issue than the callousness of those within the Hip-Hop world. Even now, I write this piece because I have lost someone dear to me. And while I have attempted to remain a douchebag and poke fun at the useless sh*t of life, I feel like I have treated life itself the same way.

Regret is a useless emotion. It is also a avoidable one. Just appreciate your family. Your friends. Yourself. Your life.

FYL (08/26/09)

D*mn, this chick HAS to feel dumb. We all know that this cop is an idiot, but she actually fell for that sh*t! SMH

It Has Been Said... (08/25/09)

I prefer to be true to myself, even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others, rather than to be false, and to incur my own abhorrence.

-Frederick Douglass

Dr. Conrad Murray: Scapegoat

If it were any other person, it would have been a wrongful death suit. He probably would have lost his license and practice. But now he could lost his freedom, besides the fact that he could lose his life by one of these psycho fans. I reiterate that if people are willing to kill themselves because MiJac is gone, there is someone out there who wouldn't hesitate to end this dude.

But it is Michael Jackson, so someone has to pay.

It can't be the media, who made his life a sideshow for over 20 years. It can't be his family, who has manipulated him in some form or fashion since he was born and after he has passed. It can't his friends, who turned a blind eye to his addiction. It can't be his handlers who have allowed his addiction to persist, not for his success but their own. It can't be the public (or "fans") that mocked him relentlessly for years.

It certainly can't be MiJac's fault for not finding a way to overcome HIS addiction and avoiding anyone who wished to turn him away from the dangerous drugs he took.

It is a cardiologist's fault. Because he was giving him these drugs... or because he didn't perform CPR for long enough... or for whatever other reason the LAPD or coroner's office can come up with to distract from the real reason Michael Jackson died: the source of his addiction and the addiction itself.

Have you seen the video? He's emaciated. He was 115 pounds at the time of his death.



He was taking Propofol to sleep nightly. If Dr. Murray would not administer the drugs to him, Michael would have given that $100,000 a month to someone else. It was going to happen. It sucks to say it, but no one was trying to stop his addiction or help him.

Do I make excuses for Dr. Murray? Hell f*cking no. Just because MiJac could have given that money to someone else if he didn't do it, doesn't excuse the fact that he took that money and strapped IV after IV to the addict. But the punishment isn't going to fit the crime if this prosecution ensues.

And what about the punishment everyone else in his life deserves?

Justice Must Be Served

I'm from NY, so I've seen a lot of f*cked up sh*t. I've seen enough to know it isn't something to brag about, especially when you get numb to it. Very little can bring out a lot of emotion in me: I see ignorant sh*t, SMH and keep it moving.

But this...

This has me twisted.

This isn't television. This is a young man who was beaten senseless and discarded like trash. WTF?

Just... post this and get the word out. Help ensure justice is served for that nigga and that all those f*ckers pay for letting that happen.